New Year, Same Me

Yes, that’s right. It’s officially New Year once again. And what a year this has been. It really feels like it has snowballed since about October, and I have hardly stopped for breath! As social media sites become plastered with statuses, memes, photographs, promises and pledges for what the New Year will bring, this year, I have decided to boycott. I won’t lie, yes, I am one of those people who every single year gets ready to turn over that metaphorical leaf of magic and dreams and lets us believe that the forthcoming year will be rife with purple unicorns, floating dolphins, shooting stars, oodles of love and money, and that everything will be perfect. We pledge to lose weight, finally take that trip of a lifetime, learn various weird and wonderful skills, stop crying over ‘that’ boy, stop worrying, be prettier, be funnier, be cooler…the classic empty promises.

But this year, I am not pledging to change anything. In fact quite the opposite. I am pledging to stay exactly the same. While I have been so busy over the past few months, and my life has changed a lot, it is only recently that I have taken a second to stop and look around, and think about how I feel. Yes, I am broke and single, but I have never been happier. I feel that I am in a really good place in my life, and I am taking it in the direction that feels right for me. I have an exciting new job to start, working as a Property Assistant, I have a great lifestyle, and more importantly, I’m having so much fun. I’m working very hard, but playing hard, too. So this year, I pledge to change absolutely nothing.

I want to continue enjoying life. In 2013 I overcame an anxiety disorder through the help of counselling, which I kept private from everyone, other than about four people, so talking about it on my blog is part of putting it behind me. I have become a stronger person and am able to enjoy and love life without having a massive weight on my shoulders, and for this I am so grateful.

I really would recommend counselling to anyone who feels they might have an anxiety problem. I couldn’t have got to where I am without the help of my counsellor, and what’s even better is that you can get help for free. I got help through my University counselling service, but there are other ways too. The website Seven Cups of Tea, for which my friend works, allows you to speak to counsellors online through an anonymous chat service, and its great to get you started. The aforementioned friend also runs SP A CE, which is a counselling service for those facing health problems, so check them out too. The first step to overcoming such a problem is admitting and realising yourself that you have the problem, and then beginning to understand and manage it. Don’t give up if you don’t feel better instantly. It takes time, and you’ll be becoming stronger without even realising it. I didn’t really understand how far I had come until I experienced situations where I would normally have been crippled by fear and worry, and realised I felt fine, and that the worry seemed silly now.

I wish everyone on the blogosphere a very Happy New Year. Share with me some of your resolutions or anti-resolutions as I am calling mine! What are you changing or not changing?!

Love, as always,